Amazed :o)

I am who I feel rather than who I create. Be what you feel, not what you create.

I love to see couples. It gives my heart a little jump and maybe a tiny jolt of jealousy, but moreover I love to know that my life isn't all about me. I live my life in the open, I'm a part of everything going on and everything is a part of me. We all do. Don't be so selfish to think that you are the only thing important going on in your life. I love to see someone in love, in a weird way it kinda makes me feel a little connected to that person-like we both know that amazing feeling, so we have this great understanding of each others hearts, even though they have no idea I've felt it.

Despite everything I've been through in the past 5 years, I feel amazing. Despite the watery eyes I got today in my car, I felt alive. "You bleed just to know you're alive". Yea it sucks, I hate hurting, but you feel alive and you know that if you can feel this excruciating pain that extreme happiness is coming.

In the meantime I get to experience all these things I overlooked. Make all these friendships I was too lazy and too mentally occupied to make before. I laugh harder I stretch wider I breathe deeper and I smile stronger. Guys, when you get a woman, you love her. You tell her you love her every fucking day, you show her she means the world to you, and you rest your head on her lap when you need her. Make her feel like a woman, make her feel like she's beautiful and strong and that you need her. don't be afraid to be vulnerable to her, she'll understand how much you love her to open up that wide and she'll hold your head and kiss your forehead and tell you how amazing your eyes are. When you get love, I beg of you, hang onto it. Do everything in your power to keep it. Fight for her. One day you are going to realize that something that amazing doesn't just come so easy. One day you are going to think back on how you felt and wish you had been that for her. Guys, I'm telling you, open your heart, if she's forever, she'll be there.