Chapter 61

Chapter 61

I never thought
And never wanted
To feel as if I've lost your friendship

You were a major influence on my life
The connection I felt with you
Was the strongest I've ever felt

It feels as if part of me is missing
And that part of me is your friendship
Your insight, your humor, your laughter, your stories

Your happiness is the utmost importance to me
Though I do STILL wish that it was happiness with me
I feel as if I've lost all chances, and there's no one to blame but me

I'm so glad that you're finally happy
You deserve it the most out of everyone I know
And it makes me smile to know that you finally are

The next chapter wasn't supposed to be yet
There should still be 40 more years
Can we turn back the page?

I want to go back to Chapter 60
More broken headboards, back flips
Hoodies, polar bears, and foot gloves

My feelings towards you have not changed
And I don't see them changing at all
At the least, this has been a wake up call for me

I know that I can't have all of you
I realize that it hasn't been an option
All I ask is for enough of you, as your friend

I know that really, we are still friends
I would never take that 'title' away
But I feel as if we've drifted apart

And that kills me

~Springtyme